Fear of Growing up

"Time goes by fast so live in the moment", says almost every adult I've talked too. It can be scary to think that one day I'm going to be sixty looking back at my young self. 

Although, growing up comes with many things like wisdom and maturity, sometimes I wish I could stay young forever. The thought of one day leaving my siblings and parents behind just breaks my heart. Yes, family can be annoying every now and then but growing up with people you cherish and love so much, makes leaving them really hard. 

When I was little, I wanted to be older so bad. I craved having more freedom, being able to drive, or even stuff like putting on makeup and being able to stay home if I didn't want to go somewhere with my parents. I have experienced all those things now and more; they are all great and I can't wait to see what else is waiting to happen. However, sometimes I find myself wishing I could go back and experience going my back to my old neighborhood where I would want to stay outside playing until the sun goes down. Also, back when the only worry in life was when I'm going to play with my friends again. 

Growing up also means everyone around you is growing too, parents are getting older, and it hurts to see them get more fragile. Watching them stop doing certain things they love because their body is not that physically strong anymore. I've put into perspective that there will be a last time for everything, last time you will have a certain conversation with someone, last time you will be living with your parents, and siblings, last time you will play a certain game, and more. One just keeps getting older and as you get older you outgrow people, outgrow certain music, outgrow certain hobbies and you move on to different experiences.

Time won't stop for people; it can't slow down and there is no way to reverse it. There is so much beauty in it but even so it can be scary in certain ways.

What are your thoughts on growing up?